Trying Times

Hell’s shadow has grown strong,

Hate,

Anger,

Violence,

Suffering,

War.

Spirits are bleached,

Gasping for air.

The still small voice,

Seems to fade.

Where is God?

Where can comfort be found?

His kingdom is never far,

It is within.

Deep in the heart,

A garden awaits.

Wherever the head lies,

A bunker,

A shelter,

An army tent,

He stands at the door,

And knocks.

No one can flee from His presence,

Though the hateful may try.

His Love truly conquers all,

When hearts are open.

50/50

Every day,

I walk a tightrope.

Introvert,

Extrovert.

Time with people,

Time alone.

Two needs,

Battling within.

People drain me,

People energize me.

Both are strong,

Either can dominate.

I must

Choose.

Too much of either,

I am overwhelmed.

With work,

I can strike a balance.

Knowing my limits,

Honoring my needs.

If I am wise,

I choose the path of sanity,

I choose what feeds myself and others.

Falling or Flying?

I dreamt I fell from a tower,

Dropping into darkness.

No panic,

No rush of air.

Calmly waiting for impact,

It doesn’t come.

In the soft sky

I sense eternity.

Am I flying?

God’s hand holds me,

Keeping me from the void below.

I am safe,

Floating,

Falling,

Into His Love.

This entry was posted on February 16, 2022. 1 Comment

Outside of Self

Inside self,

Is a closed space.

Nothing,

Emptiness,

Loneliness.

A dark fortress,

Of insanity.

Outside self,

Is an open space.

Everything,

Fullness,

Community,

Love.

A joyful life

Of sanity.

Dreams

Dozing off,

My hand is on the door.

My eyes flutter close,

I enter a more fluid existence.

My thoughts flow like rivers,

I receive flashes of prophecy.

In the mountainous mansion of my mind,

Certain rooms are revisited.

I walk the halls exploring,

Caverns,

Gardens,

Staircases,

Libraries,

Galaxies.

My darkest spaces,

Hold grounding truths.

In the center is Duality.

Light of Heaven,

Darkness of Self,

Balance.

This entry was posted on July 11, 2021. 1 Comment

Complete

Autumn Field

I am a being of Light.

I am a being of Shadow.

I am in between.

I dance in the sunlight,

I crawl in the dark.

I sit in sharp stones with my shadow,

I float in sweet breezes with angel wings.

To become one, I must understand the other.

I am complete with the feather and the stone.

Other

I

Am

Other.

I am Energy.

I Choose.

I Create.

I am Magic.

I

Am

Joy.

This entry was posted on January 24, 2021. 2 Comments

Buried

Winter of the soul,

After months of separation.

The void opens wider,

Threatening to bury me.

A candle of hope,

Flickers.

My heart seeks a golden treasure,

Closeness.

In the flame of love,

A Divine figure stands.

My anxious mind finds rest,

I let go.

Warmth floods from within,

Beauty is found.

Gratitude is found.

Joy is found.

Light shines in the darkness.

Closeness in spirit is realized,

I climb away from despair.

Sun rises on my heart,

Sparkle returns to my eyes.

To truly live,

I let Love shine through me.

This entry was posted on December 17, 2020. 1 Comment

Natural Versus Spiritual

The world believes it can dictate my entire being,

Bombards me endlessly with shimmers of gold smoke.

How to be,

What to be,

Where to be,

What to think,

What to own.

To save my sanity,

I remove my mind from the chaos.

Deep inside is a place the world cannot touch,

A place of peace and innocence.

Love rules all,

Light shines brighter,

I breathe deeper.

Grazing in God’s garden,

No darkness can touch me,

Pain fades like ghosts,

Screams dissolve into whispers.

There is nothing to prove,

Nothing to chase.

Truly, Heaven lies within.

Beat The Devil

I fear pain,

I acknowledge its necessity.

I chase my demons down the path.

Try to beat them at their own game.

I lower myself into the bog,

I meditate on my mistakes.

Pain of regret washes over my heart,

I bleed into my soul.

I voluntarily remind myself,

Without God I am nothing.

In the stillness of the night,

Cleansing tears fall.

No trophy waits for me,

Only His loving arms.

A clean heart,

A true mind.

A useful purpose.

One thing I desire of the living God,

That I may dwell in His house,

Forever.

This entry was posted on September 28, 2020. 1 Comment